Family Circus

This is an article that Sarah wrote for a missions magazine.

I remember the Family Circus cartoon: the mom stands in the kitchen with a baby crying on her hip, a toddler pulling on her leg, and an older child asking her to sign a school paper. In the background, a pot boils over, the phone rings, and laundry spills out onto her dirty floor. Even the dog holds his dish, begging to be fed. The caption reads: “For this I went to college?”

I can relate, can’t you? In college, I prepared for the missionary work to which God had called me. After classes in Bible, missions, interpreting, and education, I was ready to serve God alongside David. We dove into language study and eagerly started a church plant. God fulfilled another of our dreams with back to back kids. We were thrilled! Then, reality started to hit.  As Bible studies in our living room ran until midnight, I was in a bedroom with a screaming, tired baby. I took “maternity leave” from teaching Religion and Morality classes in the public school. Rather than counseling at Bible camp, I stayed home to nurse our baby and potty train our toddler, so David could be 100% involved with preaching and counseling.

I knew what a “high and holy calling” it was to be a mother, but, let’s be honest: is it more thrilling to lead two girls to the Lord after a stirring message, or to clean urine and spit up in another room while you miss the whole service? And, at least for me, I was more confident and capable in ministry duties than in motherly ones. Need a Bible lesson? No problem. Infant fevers or feeding tips? I don’t know what I’m doing! I have a master’s degree, but this mothering job is pretty hard. Why didn’t I major in it?!

One by one, I was unplugging (temporarily) from ministry duties, so I could take care of my kids. But, as I let go of each one, I felt I was losing myself. My identity had been wrapped up in what I was doing for Christ. I somehow viewed “just being a mother” as the bottom of the totem pole, and, suddenly, there I was struggling with the “lowliest” job and disconnected from the work I still felt called to do. I was discouraged, confused, and spiraling into some dark days.

Thankfully, God used His Word, other books, people, and counsel to help me through. First, He showed me that who I am is not defined by what I do for Him. By no merit of my own, He created me, sent His Son to die for me, chose me, and saved me. My position as His beloved daughter is all because of Him. Basing my worth on how much I did for Him today is both erroneous and prideful.

Secondly, He is changing my perspective on motherhood. I used to see grocery shopping and cooking as a tedious hour-long project that gets demolished in 15 minutes. Now, I stand in the produce section and think of the health and life this food will give my kids, so they can grow and become the people God wants them to be. Recently, I was braiding Laura’s hair. As we fetched a hairclip from her room, she suddenly started asking about heaven. I had to step out to the kitchen, sit on the floor, and cry for joy. Motherhood is difficult and dirty and draining, but it is the greatest mission work ever!

As Laura and Samuel are growing, I am picking up ministry responsibilities again. How I pray for God to help me reach the precious souls He has placed around me, and, most importantly, those He has placed right under my roof.


7 thoughts on “Family Circus”

  1. This is so utterly beautiful, and so very true!!!! Blessings to your sweet family from the Czech Republic.:)

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  2. Amen. You’ve got it Sarah! As draining and unexciting as it can be at times, God gives us no greater adventure than raising His children. As you have learned, it’s all about perspective. I have learned that the best defense is to have your Bible study time, prayer time, and get sleep when you can. Then on the really hard days when you know all of these things, but still feel worn and at a loss remember this: my mom would always say, “This too shall pass, it won’t be like this forever.” This is a bitter-sweet thought. There will come a day when you’re no longer having to wipe snot from their noses, but there will also come a day when holding them and telling them everything is okay will not fix their problems. Praise God he has allowed you to be a wonderful mother now, it is a wonderful training ground for future missions!

  3. God bless you and your family. I don’t make it to the meeting but I do pray. And your letters help me know more how to!

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